One and a half more weeks until my man and I leave for vacation: Orlando, FL. I really really can’t wait. I just want to get away from work, the crappy-awful-construction infested-beat up roads, the deceiving weather, and everything else that has to do with Michigan. I hate Michigan. Sooo ready to leave here for a bit.

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Today, I’m really starting to feel pain in the palms of my hands from work. Getting carpool tunnel…=( Before, it was just my forearms that were hurting, but now…my hands are killing. I need like an hour long massage on my shoulders, neck, arms, and hands.
I don’t want to do nails for the rest of my life. I don’t!

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I have four more months until I have I move to a new place. My place is about 45 minutes away from where I work. Sucks…so I wanna move closer. Plus, the biggest thing I hate about my place right now is that the trash is allll the way in the back behind the whole complex. For me to take out my trash, I would have to put my trash in my trunk and drive there. Such a hassle. And get this…there’s another apartment complex next to us, where they have their trash bins conveniently placed for their residents. Their trash bins are a short walk away from me. So, I do what a lot of my neighbors do…sneak at night and put our trash in their bin. Yeah, we have to “sneak” our trash away because there’s a sign on our side saying there’s a 500 dollar fine if we throw our trash there. That’s so stupid. Everyone in my apartment building received a second letter in the past two months not to throw trash there. Maybe the apartment complex should move the trash bins in the back in convenient places for everyone. Then we wouldn’t have a problem.
I also don’t like my dishwasher. It’s sooo loud! It annoying and embarrassing.
Don’t like the parking space…
I’m sick of the place. =P
Ready to move to a new place.

I started reading “A NEW EARTH Awakening to Your Life’s Purpose,” by Eckhart Tolle. (Oprah’s Book Club)
So far, I’m on chapter two and it got me thinking in a whole new perspective on life. Me liking this book. I’ll get into more detail with the book and my thought when I’m in the pulp of it. =P

Change of subject:
For the past like 2-3 years I’ve been dying my hair jet black. Naturally I already have some pretty dark hair, but with a tint of brown. I like the look of it being so black that it looks blue. Just a few days ago, I didn’t to get rid of that blue-blackness by using Color Oops Extra Strength Hair Color Remover. At first, I thought it wasn’t gonna work with me since I’ve been dying it black for years. But surprisingly, it worked…actually leaving my hair in a dark reddish brown tint. That color looked cool, but I didn’t like it with my skin tone. So the next day, which was last night, I dyed it a light brown. My hair is still dark but with a brown tint instead of red.
Every time I look at it, I wanna dye my hair back to black. I feel like black looks the best on my for my tan-olive skin tone. So yeah, after all that work, I’m gonna go back to black hair. Oh yeah…when I do dye my hair back to black, I’m so using the product I used to dye it that Light Brown: Clairol’s NEW PERFECT 10 hair color. It’s the application with the built on brush. Man, I am so in love with this product. I have long hair, so it was a bitch to dye my hair with the applicator tip. With the brush, I feel like the dye is even distributed throughout my hair. BUT be very careful not to squeeze the bottle too hard when applying. I got dye all over my shirt, then on my slippers and ended on my bathroom floor. =X So when I squeeze the stuff on, I make sure I have my other hand below to catch any drippings. Other than that, I believe this is a great invention for hair dying products. Also, instead of waiting 25 minutes for the product to cure onto your hair, you only have to wait 10 minutes!
Sho…, why didn’t they come up with this years ago?! =P
Happy, happy, happy.

About a year ago, my boyfriend got the Mac Pro. Since then, I’ve been dying to get one on my own, but didn’t need anything too fancy. I love Macs. Way better than my PC. I love blogging and doing artwork, but only could do that when I got home after a ten hour shift of work. I could have gotten a cheaper laptop, but sooo not the same. =) I love Mac even more now with the new Leopard operating system. Sweetness! The Book is sooo cute too. =)

So this all means, more blogs and more artwork (if I don’t get lazy).

When I see a friend or anyone post something up in they’re photos and they get bad feedback, it breaks my heart. And the people that gave them that feedback, I know, are really close to them. Pictures of art like drawings, paintings, make-up work, fashion design, graphic design, etc…are posted and when I look at the following comments, I see negative feedback. “I think you should change this and change that.” The “bashers” just write a whole paragraph on what they think needs to be changed. Why don’t you just make your own then! Sorry…=P
Being somewhat of an artist myself, I would spend hours, days, even weeks on an art project. If someone were to tell me that I should change this and change that…I would be hurt. I spend hours and hours on something, and the only reason I’d post up something is to show people my talents. The way these “bashers” leave feedback aren’t like suggestions…they sound more like…like…haters. Tsk. When people post something up like this…why not understand that it’s a real personal and sensitive stuff.
If you wanna suggest a change…try saying what’s good/great about the project first. Or sometimes don’t even say anything bad at all. About 90% of the time, I look at my old artwork..and tell myself what I need to change.

“Imma test this out. Now keep in mind that I’m an artist and I’m sensitive about my shit.” – Erykah Badu

 Man, this morning I was rushing to work, and I got my first speeding ticket!!! Errr. Kinda funny too. It’s not really a big deal, just its my first speeding ticket. Thought I could go through my young years without one. Haha. So I gotta pay 130 for it. I am thankful that the Officer didn’t rewrite me up for the actual speed I was going. He noticed I had a good record and thought it would be nice to just write me for going 5 over. I was on a 35 mph lane going 57. haha. I almost cried because I already have enough stuff to deal with. I really should sign up for the Iamsensitive website. haha. =P Just kidding..I will not low myself to that.

I started working out again and it feels good. This time I’m making goals that are still tough, but still reachable. I really am determined this time. If I can discipline myself to wake up on time for work, then I can do this. That used to be a huge problem for me. I used to set myself up for failure by making crazy goals like lose thirty pounds in a month. Not healthy. And when I noticed I didn’t reach that goal weight at the end of the month, I get disappointed. Not this time. I want to join a gym, but not sure sure. I really wanna join Lifetime, but its so expensive. I really just wanna go to use the treadmill.

I’m really trying to talk to myself more positively. Was very insecure. But I found out the hard way that no one wants to be around someone who is always degrading theirself and doing nothing to fix it. Shoo…I didn’t even want to hang out with myself. Didn’t like looking in the mirror. In my mind, I would be like, “Eww girl…your stomach is soo fat which makes you ugly.” I know that would never be a nice thing to say to someone else, so why say it to myself? My attitude is totally getting a makeover. =) And I’m feeling great about it.

I really want to better myself and I will. =)